Drama

Drama! I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!! I dropped Baby off today and as he clung with his entire little body to mine I literally started to feel like I was going to get sick. Do you know that feeling? He DID NOT want to go and Uncle literally peeled Baby off of me. Good thing I keep plastic bags in the car! :(

After that I took my other kiddos to an egg hunt and they all had a great time! I think this was Michael's first real time "hunting" :) They got a TON of eggs and had a fun time!

We had about 1/2 hour in between getting done with the egg hunt and picking up baby and I got a text from Dad asking why we were trying to adopt Baby "behind his back" Ahhhh...I am so tired of this drama! I had to explain to him AGAIN (see t-shirt post!!) that he needs housing or they are going to have us adopt him (if he surrenders) or Baby will live with aunt/uncle. He replied back that Baby is all he has and if he loses him it will be like he is dead. He ended it with "I need help" Honestly my heart breaks for this guy! He is old enough to be my Dad (not too far away in age from my real Dad) and he is the victim of poverty and part of the cycle. He doesn't know how to do anything different :( He said that he got a place and that he is working out of town to get it. I replied with "really? As in you are living there and it's safe for Baby?" I got no text in return. Having the application for a place and having a place are so different!

He doesn't have the forethought to think.....I'm working out of town. Who is going to take care of baby while I am away? He also doesn't think or acknowledge that these out of town gigs are short-term and not a permanent way to support a child. I don't know what happened to the other job?????

Sigh.....still looking for that neon sign from God! :) The past several days I keep reading/hearing stories of how foster children leave the foster parent's home but weeks, months and even years later they return to the foster parents forever. When something like that happens to me over and over I sit up and pay attention. Maybe the Holy Spirit is trying to tell me something...prepare me for something. The next two months are going to be the fastest and slowest months all at the same time!

Shining Star

Last night was our licensing agency's foster parent appreciation banquet. It's a nice night out with your spouse (if you have one) with dinner and awards to show how much we are appreciated as foster parents. We love our agency and especially our FDS! It's amazing to be part of agency where it seems like everyone on the staff is so talented at what they do and truly do care about foster parents. :) We won this "shining star" award this year!

As hubby and I were talking (in a QUIET car!) on the way there we were discussing Baby's case and talking about shining light into the dark places. Much like roaches or some other nasty thing like that...when light is shone on someone's dark places they want to hide and cower. They create masks to wear to cover that darkness or simply just flee from you. Interestingly enough, one of the speakers was talking about just that! Letting our lights SHINE to those dark places of foster care where people would rather not go. "Hide it under a bushel? NO!! I'm gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, let it shine!"

T-shirt

OH YES! I want THIS t-shirt :)

Current Favorite!

I love this song! It speaks to so much of what is going on right now. The words highlighted below are so true! He knows and we don't!

You lead, I'll follow, Your hands hold my tomorrow,
Your grip, Your grace, You know the way,
You guide me tenderly,
When you lead, I'll follow,
Just light the way and I'll go,
Cause I know what you got for me is more than I can see,
So lead me on, on, on and on,
Just lead me on, on, on and on,

Lies

I really wonder how people (namely Baby's social worker and her supervisor) sleep at night when they tell such blatent LIES that affect the life of a CHILD. To them my Baby is a name on a piece of paper who has been on their books for over a year now. Their agenda is to get him off their books and it seems like they will do anything to get that accomplished. Oh....apparently they don't realize that #1 they are up against GOD! #2 They are up against a Mama Bear willing to fight and #3 they are up against a GAL who truly cares for this sweet Baby and wants to see him adopted into a loving and stable home.

Ohhhh...Rak Chazak!!!

The following is a quote that I feel is so pertinent!

The reason why many fail in battle is because they wait until the hour of battle. The reason why others succeed is because they have gained their victory on their knees long before the battle came. Anticipate your battles; fight them on your knees before temptation comes, and you will always have victory.- R.A. Torrey

Oh I have been on my knees for this boy and his case for so long now. I am praying and fasting and I BELIEVE that the TRUTH will be revealed and that they will not be able to sleep until the truth is told and their consciences CLEAR!

Wow...we have been foster parents for nearly 2 1/2 yrs and both cases have been sloppy and messy. I read a lot of other foster care blogs that seem to have much clearer/(dare I say) easier(?) cases. I have to admit I'm a bit jealous! lol!!

Meeting?!

I got a text from Dad yesterday saying that he has a meeting with the CM to "discuss things" when he gets back in town next week. I was sure to let him know that he has options and he DOES have a voice and say in where Baby lives (if not with him). I of course let the GAL know of this meeting so Dad gets more than just the agency's side (who desperately want a quick close to this case!) Praying for revelation for Dad! :)

Another lockbox idea

Hubby was out shopping for some things for the house and found this at Lowes! I have several things that I like to keep in my kitchen for everyday or more frequent use and this is perfect for keeping those things there and still obey the rules :) The other stuff I keep in my other lockbox. Just another idea to keep in mind if you are looking for something!