So we've come to the close of yet another year. For some reason they seem to keep going faster and faster! It seems like yesterday my oldest was just born! Uuummm..yeah that was close to TEN years ago! lol!
This year has brought a lot of "troubles" and circumstances that were very difficult for our family. Along with all the drama that foster care has brought our family, my sister was diagnosed with cancer and not given much hope of living. We had difficult things with our children too. BUT GOD....gave us His grace and mercy in each and every situation we faced. We have been given peace in all things...not like the world perceives peace, but how HE describes peace. My sister was deemed NED (No Evidence of Disease) on October 4th (Praise God!), Choo Choo's case is coming to a close (in TWO DAYS!!) and God has brought the right people into our lives to walk through all of it! :)
The other night when I picked up Choo Choo from his visit it was his Aunt who dropped him off. This is a rare occurrence. I knew she wanted to talk as it was the last visit before court. I prepared myself as much as I could while we exchanged pleasantries about his visit. Then it came "So...D-Day is almost here!" I cringed a bit wondering where she was going to go with that statement. I am so thankful to say that she and I are on the same page. I talked about how God has used the insane length of this case to bring me to a place of peace. All my (human/fleshy) feelings of distaste towards them is gone. Will we ever be best friends? Nope...but we don't have to be. I would miss my boy like CrAzY (!!!) but I know he would be in a place of people who love him and care about him, and will keep him safe.
She went on and was very complimentary to hubby and I. She said that of course they want him, but if they couldn't have him that they were glad he was with us. He is safe, well taken care and taught well. She said that no matter where they go everyone comments on how smart he is and she gave a lot of that credit to me staying home with him. I was very surprised and blessed :)
Court has yo-yo'ed from 9am to 1:30pm and now back to 9am! I am thankful that it's early so I don't have to be a anxious pacing mama all morning! As we close 2013 I look forward to all that 2014 has in store for our family!!! Of course we are praying that it includes the adoption of our 4th son!!! :)