Friday, September 7, 2012

As the day draws closer...

  • every hug seems sweeter
  • every word he speaks seems more adorable
  • every time I put him to bed I hold on a little longer
  • every dinner time when the floor is trashed makes me think how I will miss his messes
  • every time he does a silly dance I try to burn it in my memory
  • every time he whimpers in the night I secretly hope he'll need some extra cuddles
  • every time he giggles and plays with his brothers I think how much they will miss each other
  • every time I brush his teeth I wonder how many more teeth I will get to see pop through
  • every picture I take I treasure more and more and wonder if I will get pictures of him in the future
  • every 1 yr old tantrum bothers me less
  • every cuddle he gives me I try to breathe him in as much as humanly possible not wanting to let go
  • every smile melts my heart
Oh there is so much more....if you have ever had to say goodbye to a child whether a long-term foster child or perhaps your child was called Home, then you know what I mean.  It's like living every day like it's your last....I guess we should live like that always huh?! :)


Carrie said...

This was me last summer :( It was so so hard. Such an unnatural thing to have to give "your" baby away. Hugs and prayers.

MamaFoster said...

i was surprised how THAT was what stuck with me the most as I got ready to have a child returned to their parent and afterwards.

i feel like i really have learned what it means to live every day like it is your last.

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Mitzy said...

Beautifully written, I will be praying for you.