Understanding

I'm not sure anyone could possibly understand what it's like to be a foster parent, unless of course you are (or have been) in the trenches! To give ALL of yourself and not hold back any part of your love. To kiss every boo boo, clean up the puke (ugh..baby has another bug!) or get lunch sneezed on you! Then...to have no control over issues that truly matter. It's tough ya'll!

I'm sure so many of you thinking "enough already" but seriously...think about your own biological or adopted child never having met (or remember) a family member of yours. Would you just drop them off and say "see ya later!" No (well me at least)! I would acclimate them to that family member at least a few times before just taking off. Maybe I'm just too emotional!

That's why this is so hard...he doesn't know these people. Other than a 4 hour visit with his bio-dad a week, I am with him! I meet every need and lots of wants too :) How can I just shut that off? It's hard being told "your opinion doesn't matter." Sigh....I think a big bowl of ice cream is coming my way tonight!!! Well that and getting down on my knees...this battle is the Lord's :) Yaweh Nissi!!!

Ok enough...more puke to clean up! Eeeewwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!