We have no idea what God is ultimately going to do with Baby's case. With all the PG talk and Uncle suddenly showing up again, I have a feeling that the CM may have approached them about the possibility of PG and I have a feeling they are open to it. Hmmm.....his case could close in the next several months if that is true. Oh can you imagine what my heart would be going through if that were the case???
Sometimes I wish God would give us some little peeks into what the future holds! Of course I understand that would negate the necessity for us to just trust His plan, but the little girl throwing a fit in me wants to know which way to go..NOW! Hee hee!! Frankly if we are able to adopt Baby, Hubby is very hesitant to take another child in because they come and never leave-LOL!! Foster care has not turned out at all what we had expected :) I totally respect and admire large families out there but I think 4-5 kids is probably our limit. That's a lot compared to the avg. 2.5 kids American's have, but I guess I just know lots of really big families so that seems small to us! Of course we're not limiting God or His plan, but just sayin'.... :)
All of this is pretty much babbling, but what's been going through my mind/heart the past several weeks! Waiting for God to reveal His plan for our family....more waiting....why is there so much waiting in this life? lol! I guess it's something we all need work on huh? :)
Jeremiah 29:11
New International Version (NIV)
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
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We are in the same boat. After our adoptions are final what do we do? Take another placement and start the roller coaster all over again? Part of me wants to keep fostering but all of the caseworkers and family members and visits and unknowns make it really draining. I guess we will see.
Don't I know what you are going through. I will tell you that the hardest part about saying "no" to foster care is knowing that there are always going to be children who need to come to a "good" home. I also know that there are not a lot of good foster homes out there. I was "comfortable" with 5 and now we have 6, lol! I am definnitely puting a lot of trust in the One who is bigger than me! I know without a doubt there will become a moment when God will look down and say "well done". When He does, I know I will be able to walk away trusting that He has brought others in to pick up where we left off.
I personally think you need to take a few more in and catch up to our 17 :)
K-at the rate/cycle we have been going we'd end up with 19 kids...yeah....not going to happen! lol! My friend is in the process of adopting #'s 27,28,&29!! God just made her different than me! :)
Praying for your family and God's will and clear direction. We've been in that same nutty boat with visits, court day wonderings and the family drama. We're just trying to add a little girl(s) to our boy bunch (2) without disrupting their little lives. We've even signed up with a private agency to avoid all the visits, court dates and unknowns. Unfortunately, the agencies have told us unless we're willing to have the "AVERAGE" domestic fee of $40,000 or close to it... we won't even have our profile shown! Are you kidding me? Back to foster care...
If this journey has taught me ANYTHING it has been to CLING to the promises of God. Seeing bits and pieces of this puzzle has been hard but hind sight has been priceless in giving us clarity in certain situations. I just want to come out at the end of this 'ride' and say that no matter what I trust God to be faithful whether or not I feel that what's happening is ok. Because ultimately, HE loves them more than I ever could. I always say 'I don't know WHAT the future holds for these little ones but I know WHO hold their future!!".
Praying God will reveal what HIS Plan is....and I agree- neon signs would sometimes be GREAT!!! :)
Love the quoted verse today - clinging to that!
I love this! We are in the same boat, which is NOT what we had intended when we set out (we only wanted to foster...I LIKED only having one forever child).
My problem, though, is that I am starting to panic because if we end up adopting Peanut, we'll only have one opening for a foster child, and I can't bear the thought of the perfect baby girl coming into our lives but causing us to have to quit foster care.
It's hard to just leave all this up to God...but we have to!
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