Last night hubby was fast asleep in bed and all I could do was think about the last 14 months of Baby's life. ALL that we have experienced with him...the awesome things like first smile, learning to sit/walk, all the feeding fun, etc. and then the icky stuff like longs nights, getting puked on a lot, and of course our hospital stay. Tears flowed on my pillow as I thought of all these things. They may be able to take my baby away from me , but those are always things that I will hold in my Mama heart...those can never be taken from me.
A friend of mine could be going through a similar situation very soon as well. We have both talked about how even though this is hurting us we think more about our babies. Will they feel abandoned? We hurt for their hurting hearts knowing that those on the other end simply do understand what these children will be going through.
I think I will start to pour through our tons of pictures of the last 14 months and put together a nice book so he can always have a piece of us with him and always remember the place where it all began. Hubby and I have talked a bit and shared and cried! The next 2 months + will be gut wrenching. Can we do it? Will we do it all over again? YES! God is faithful and his grace will be enough to put us back together again and say yes to the next little one who needs us!